keep walking

i fell in love with classical.

music is an amazing thing. it calms you, gives you peace. many times when i felt tired, i’d just listen to some of the brilliant pieces.

latest addiction: mozart- oboe concerto in c major

it just makes me wanna praise God even more. how he created human with all the talents- to compose, to play, to make such beautiful ‘noises’.
beyond my comprehension.

i have many things in my mind today. overwhelming.
the word ‘missions’ has once more imprinted in me. personally, i really enjoyed the missions conference. each session taught me something and at the end of the day it kinda gave me assurance.

i’m very inspired by eelee (which i told her too), she has somehow made a way for the younger generation to really go for church planting. world missions is not beyond our reach anymore. it’s not for others, it’s for me.

Isaiah said “Here am I, send me”
he did not ask God to send other ppl.

i have only one candle to burn, i want to light in a place where there’s no light.

start taking practical steps. small steps, but moving forward.

i’m back. but i think my mind has not been fully sorted out yet.
i felt a bit weird putting on make-up this morning, when i wore my heels again.
this must be a post-trip syndrome.

there are too many things that i felt and learnt thru-out my 7 days at yangon. first of all i should say “tadaima.. i am back” =)
thanks folks who welcomed me back and asked how the trip was. i am feeling a bit bad now cos when i was there i didn’t really think of you guys hahaaa.. ok correction, it should be i didn’t think of things of spore.

living without hp, without pc and internet, without anime and manga, without video games and ipod. it has been a fantastic week i’d say.

sometimes i got caught up with things that i have, things that i like here, that i do not have the time to just be still.. to be simple and just to be near to God.

this trip taught me about being rich spiritually.
blessed are those who are poor in this world but rich in God. many ppl are not living as fortunate as i am, but there is so much joy of the Lord within them. there are so many faces, so many stories, so many miracles that touched my heart.

i put down my thoughts everyday in my journal. the amazing things that God has done and all the words that He has spoken. specifically.
God is always near, if only I am willing to open my heart.

i feel blessed that my life could be a blessing to the ppl there, may it be small.

kim is still compiling all the hundreds of pics and videos that we took. i hope i can tell a story in my next entry.

yup. in conclusion, it has been a real wonderful trip!!
i would love to go again. maybe to another place.
next time some of you should go with me =)

gyabo!!

justin you are a saviour!
the 3GP converter is really amazing, i managed to convert anime to ipod in a very short time.
seeing chiaki-sama from my ipod.. what a joy~ hahaa….

anyway, now i am taking a break from my packing. the truth is, i haven’t really started on it.
it’s an easy one though, considering that i will only pack t-shirts and slippers.
beloved accessories, watch, ipod, dresses and heels stay in spore.

thanks everyone for all your messages of ‘bon voyage’ and ‘fruitful trip’, and yes germs i will heed your advice on the ehem panties issues -_-”
ooo 12 hours to go before my trip.
so excitinG~

note: i will not be contactable until monday 28th may.

there is no internet there, auto roaming is not allowed. so don’t bother to sms me. hp will be automatically dead the moment i reach golden land.
please don’t ask me why, government’ rules.

i had a good talk with nic on friday (after we went for yet another shopping)
there are quite a few things in my mind. mostly about the main purpose of my existence. maybe this trip will reveal something.
i should start thinking of ways to upgrade myself. maybe an advanced english course. to perfect it.

alrite i should continue with what i have to finish. packing it is.

listening >> radical dreamers
to me this is the best japanese song. so many years have passed and i’m still loving it. totally =)

hai. sayonara.

You are the source of the life
I can’t be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You

This world has nothing for me
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
I will follow You

i’ve always loved this song.

do you know that without the tongue, a man cannot speak?
with ulcers on my tongue now, i am having difficulty in pronounciating.. words come out as mumbles. so i think i shall keep my mouth shut.

talk only when it’s necessary and show love in action instead. LOL.

from june onwards, i’m going to launch a ‘diet to wear gown’ campaign. all for the sake of my brother’s wedding.

1. jog or go to gym regularly.. at least 2 times a week (considering my busy schedule)
2. eat proper food. limit the consumption of fattening stuff. no supper.
3. sleep early. not later than 1 am.

seriously, i’m beginning to think that it’s impossible for me to do all of the above.
i need bigger motivation.

these are muffins, inside is chocolate, chocolate and chocolate.
LOL. brought them back from office, i don’t have the heart to eat them.
just in case you’re wondering what’s with the ‘thank you’, those are from customer.

man… i cannot sleep.

today (more like yesterday) i went to the fourth and final missions meet. when esther -our cool team leader from YWAM aka Youth With A Mission- said ’see ya all on monday at airport’, it dawned upon me that it was indeed the last preparation meet.
it’s been really fun gathering every week to discuss and pray. all that’s left now is the real thing.. ahaha.. i am so excited ><

esther shared some of her experiences today, i think she has a very adventurous life with so many countries (and mostly outskirts, even jungles) that she’s been to.
but mainly, i am very much encouraged with her spirit and her obedience towards God. she reminded us a lot of times on spiritual impact that we can give rather than just being there to ‘do’ things for the sake of doing. it’s definitely not sight seeing too, though maybe we can somehow squeeze a bit of time for that. shopping is.. well.. there’s nothing to shop there.. hahaa.. so don’t expect me to buy things back yah =p

anyway, i am glad that i got to know her and of course the rest of the team. will definitely blog more about them in the future.
with everybody geared up, i actually volunteered myself to be in charge of the account aka the treasurer (i must be MAD) LOL. but i guess taking care of everybody’s money is more suitable for me compared to being in charge of the games or skit.

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2 things that made me ponder these few days

1. the wind that shakes the barley
it’s the irish movie that i watched with guo at picturehouse

2. shin angyo onshi
the korean manga that kinda blew my mind away recently (and i thought only japanese can produce good manga, i was soooo wrong)

anyway, there is actually similarity between these two.
how friends and families can become foes, how enemies can turn out to be allies as well.
how good relationship and bonds can turn sour because of a stand, a belief, a principle.
it is a sad thing.

sometimes… it’s just nobody’s fault.

what an exciting day.

i woke up with a funny feeling in my stomach. diarrhoea.. went to toilet twice before ss.
after the ss i began to have that feeling of wanting to vomit. susi accompanied me to buy charcoal.. the medicine didn’t really help.
we all went to paragon’s the soup restaurant to celebrate germs’ bday. for the first time in my life, i didn’t feel like eating.
but i did anyway.

just before we left the place, i had to run to toilet 4 times to vomit.

the first time: nothing came out
the second time: a little bit came out
i came out of toilet, telling the rest that i was ok.
after 3 mins, i ran to toilet for the third time: a little bit came out
once again, i came out of toilet and told the rest that i was ok.
after about 5 mins, for the fourth time: i vomited to a plastic bag what seemingly to be my whole lunch. one big bag of creamy soup, the veggie, tofu, meat, chicken.. everything.
ok that sounds disgusting. but it felt really good.
i certainly gave the ppl at paragon a shock. LOL.

gosh, imagine a pregnant woman experiencing this almost everyday aka morning sickness.
anyway, after that, my whole body was exhausted so i decided to go home and skipped the movie that i supposed to watch with shirls at picturehouse today. oh well..
the moment i reached home, i just slept without even closing my bedroom door and without changing clothes. it’s really a terrible feeling. no one would even know if i died i guess. ahahaha.. but anyway, after hours of feeling totally sick – burning body, headache and aching all over. i finally got up and feeling much better.
i think i can go to work tmw. i know, i’m a stubborn frog.

just wanna blog this to thank a lot of ppl. it’s good to know that many care.
thanks germs for helping me in toilet, thanks nic for buying me the preserved fruit (it helped a lot), thanks mei and esmond for caring so much and drove me home, thanks junhuang for forsaking shopping time and the sms, thanks susi and weiling for the care as well, thanks yaoguo for the sms-es =) and i gotta thank my sis who will bring home some hot milo and bread for me haha.

i thank God for everything. it’s quite a memorable day =p

btw, i have watched toki wo kakeru shoujo- the girl who leapt thru time
people.. you all gotta watch this.. it’s one of the best japanese movie aka animation that i have ever watched.
how to describe it? hmm… simply beautiful ><

next time i will post some pictures from shufen’s bday celebration last nite and today’s event.

a portion from one of the news that i found this morning when i did my daily reading:
about the kidnapping of a reporter at gaza:

….The gunmen are not always crack division militants, more Keystone Kidnappers. While an Italian journalist was being led off to a hideout he had to climb a fence. And when one of his abductors started the climb he absentmindedly handed the Italian his gun. Surely it is the first thing they teach you at kidnapper’s school, never give the hostage your machinegun.

And the whole business of kidnapping goes very much against the local social grain. Palestinians are extremely hospitable people, and one of the dangers of being abducted here must be that you could get fed to death…

-_-

my therapy for tiredness >>
close your eyes, lie on something comfortable and listen to nice classical music (blast it to your ears)

that feels fantastic.

taken from a white flag that was given during ‘excellence’ camp in 2003.

Dear God,

12 December’03
-Livi-

i wrote that down with a pink highlighter.

excellent life. life to the fullest. giving my best? that was my promise to God.

i was looking at the flag just now, still rolled nicely and put together with the camp notes, encouragement cards and accommodation list (i was in charge for it at that time, total nightmare)
it really brings back memories.

it has been quite some time since the last time i heard from God. you don’t hear because you don’t even put time and effort to listen from Him. how true.
i was at the missions meet last tuesday, we were gathering in small groups and simply prayed, seeking for a word, a revelation, a prophesy. images and words just flowed into each one of us. God gave me a specific word too. it was great. we did not rush one another, we just waited upon Him.

i don’t have time to wait upon Him for too long, my prayer has always been very short. it’s always about my own petition to Him, rather than He’s talking to me.
i pray for others too besides praying for myself. but.. it is still a one sided communication. i think i’m the only person doing the talking.

sounds familiar isn’t it?
i need to listen more. we all need to.

after reading germs’ blog, i think it’s unnecessary for me to do this, but since nic asked me to, i shall keep my promise:

the person that ps ben mentioned during his sermon last sunday (about a lady praying for a husband and the guy happened to be at the backstage) is not her.

yes.. it is confirmed. not her. LOL.. so ppl, don’t jump to conclusion.

ok nic, i did what you told me to. sorry for the delay of announcement =p

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what it means to be a shepherd and to be a sheep.
what it means to live a life with integrity.
what it means to give to the kingdom.

and yes we are officially debt free! ><

phew..
it has been really tiring. i think i’ve done well in doing 2 persons’ job in office since my colleague resigned, my boss doesn’t seem to want to hire a replacement. -_-
i may end up with this workload forever.

anyway the weekend was filled with fellowship, fellowship and fellowship.
thanks to junhuang for opening up his house, i ended up reading shin angyo onshi all night using his pc. haha. the girls ruthlessly abandoned me with the 2 guys, but it’s ok, i still love them.

mei said it looks like a chalet getaway ^^
oh.. the young boy is of course junhuang’s little brother.

watched spiderman3 with err a lot of ppl. anyway the movie’s a bit silly.. but still worth the money i guess.

listening >> collection of my new nodame cantabile OST

yin san looks really hilarious. LOL.

anyway, just thought that i’d publicize this a bit:

the Indos will be having special services on 5th and 12th May (Sat)

venue is Bayview Hotel as usual..
4 – 6 pm!

if you have any indonesian friends, do bring them down, i think should be happening.

i told shirls that i’ll be coming down tmw to help out.
shirls: “bring some ppl down too”
me: “hmmm……”
shirls: “i’m not talking about susi or hendra”

LOL. how did she know that i was thinking of them.